Langkawi? Here I come again :')

First, if you noticed the smiley I place in the title of the entry above, there's a sad smiley. Why? 
Huhu, well, it has been ages for me, not visiting Langkawi, since I was 15. It has been almost 5 years. The last time I visited here, with my mom, dad, sister and brother and also with my late grandpa. Well, my late grandpa was my guardian since I was 9 months until I was 7 year-old child. 
He watched me grow up, he taught me many things. Instead, he taught me how to cook rice. Thank you, atok. 
He is one of my idol, forever. He taught me how to talk or have a chat with people older than me, and that's the reason why I'm used to talk or have a longgggg chat with old people, although if I don't know who they are. 
Who knows that our vacation became the last holiday with atok, he passed away a few months later. It's the biggest loss in my life.
Since I am having class project to be done there, at the Langkawi Island, I told myself, not to cry when we reach there, I really have no idea that I am going to Langkawi again, after 5 years, alone, without being accompanied by any of my family members, how pathetic it is. Ya Allah, please give me strength to face all of this, I won't erase him from my memory, but please give me strength to proceed with the plan. Amin. (*please pray for me too :])

p.s: I am truly miss you, atok.Please come and visit me in my dreams, I maybe never say this to you, but I always Love you,  Al-Fatihah. {  ^_^''}